Shock

“I’ve been on a few dates,”
Is not something I could say

“I’ve been talking to a few different people,”
Is not something I could say

I can say,
I’ve been doing really well,
But at first it was hard.

At first it was hard,
How much you hurt me.

Normally I would cry,
But there was too much surprise

—Shock, I would call it,
And call it again

Even if it didn’t listen,
Or seem to care about me anymore

At all.